Forever and always a favourite of mine.


song 44 is called ‘i heard you are doing better now’. its spooky and kind of creepy. winter and snow especially always bring back a lot of strange and bad memories for me. sometimes people do awful things and it just makes you hate yourself instead.

i will put my hair back up
i havent showered since the last time you spoke to me

i had the feelings fucked out of me
i had the feelings fucked out of me

there is something awful inside you
in a deep and secret place
you were just an angel in the snow
with a twisted nightmare for a soul

i had the feelings fucked out of me
youve fucked these feelings right out of me

I haven’t showered since the last time you spoke to me.


"Will you look at me like you still think I’m lovely 
When I’m tearing the love from your hands? 
And cutting between the length of your fingers 
As delicately as I can? 

Will the clocks stop when I stop saying your name 
And your ghost gets out of my mirror? 
Are you lonely with only me to blame? 

Sad and boring, take my soul away

Am I abstract? Am I concrete?
Either way, you don’t want me
In any world that we could meet”



lately its been our hellos that feel like stepping in a bath of overwhelmingly hot water
lately its been the time we spend together in the bath that feels like being halfway submerged underwater in a too quickly room temperature-becoming liquid
do you know what i mean when i say halfway submerged…

I distrust a mattress that smells like it feels

(Source: hershe-sweet-hershey, via staticfeelings)

It’s a constant knot


"Sometimes all I really want to feel is love
Sometimes I’m angry that I feel so angry
Sometimes my feelings get in the way
Of what I really feel I needed to say”

It hurts and it hurts and it hurts.